Losing Your Loved Ones

Losing your loved ones one after another

Are excruciatingly painful

The tears and the pain

are unimaginable

Realizing that no amount of prayers,

No amount of tears

Can bring them back, ever.

Yes, the spirit lives on,

But the flesh does not.

The breath dissipates.

Kakak love you so much, Angku.

You’re my whole world.

You’ve been so great with us,

Holding us so tight in your loving arms.

And you’ll be so great with him too,

Your great grandson.

It breaks my heart that he’ll never had a chance

to know you nor hear your kancil stories,

Not ever hearing your laughs,

Or seeing the corner of your eyes

creases when you smile.

Truly, we never truly know how much

things meant until they’re gone.

Rest in peace, Angku.

Rest in so much love,

And so much prayers from all of us,

Who loves you so much with our whole heart.

Ananda Khaira Azizah,

Pekanbaru, 23 Mei 2023.

Hari Selasa, pukul 6 pagi.

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