The Little Women

I want to raise capable people in the future. Capable of feeling, capable of loving, Capable of living-type of people. Not just those capable of thinking ones. Everybody thinks, I think. But not everybody lives. Their head’s just so full with all those to do lists, what to do next, where to go,  Without really taking a break that their mind and their body much needed. No wonder we live in the world of crazy these days. Everybody’s losing it,  as if they’re in a race of burning themselves out. So please, please take time to unwind. Take your time to breath.  A very long,  deep breath. Go for a walk in the park, Bring the dogs to help you de-stress, Caress their fur and pet them well. Channel that love someplace else, and only then you’ll feel that love goes right back at you. Please, find your peace and be well. Ananda Khaira Azizah, Pekanbaru, 28 Juli 2023. Hari Jumat, pukul 10 malam.  

This mother has such longing to see her child Even before he was born. That longing then turn itself  Into a dream. A vivid one,  Like she could reach him Just a little more With his round face & adorable little nose, Long eyelashes, lips in full bloom, Slim fingers and cute little toes. The boy’s handsomely perfect, looks exactly like his dear father. Please be well, our darling boy. Our soul, the solace of our hearts. My everything.  See you in a bit, darling. Just a little more. Ananda Khaira Azizah, Pekanbaru, 21 Juli 2023. Hari Jumat, pukul 1 siang.  

I don’t know why, or how But my husband has that healing hands That diminish every pain it touches With no failure recorded The pain heightened a lot on this last month of pregnancy, with false contraction and all. With no sleep and no correct sleeping positions. Truly, truly grateful he could be with me right now. God is good, after all. His timing is impeccable,  His reasoning is even more so. Thank you God for every breath, every strength, every protection and every presence. Thank you for everything. Ananda Khaira Azizah, Pekanbaru, 5 Juli 2023. Hari Rabu, pukul 12 malam.

“Open my hand, darling.” She said to her little girl. “But there’s nothing there, Mama.” There is. If something isn’t seen, that  doesn’t mean it’s not there. “Then what is it, Mama?” Faith, darling. You do not see faith, you feel faith. Engraved deep at the  bottom of your heart. We clasped our hand every night  to pray, love. Without fail. For His protection, for His guidance, for His grace. Then He will hear you  and answer you without fail too. For He will be with us  as long as we’re with Him, For He will be in us in whatever  hardships we encounter,  For He will pray for us, For always, and for forever. Ananda Khaira Azizah, Pekanbaru, 1 Juli 2023. Hari Sabtu, pukul 8 pagi.