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I Don’t Know Why

I don’t know why, or how

But my husband has that healing hands

That diminish every pain it touches

With no failure recorded


The pain heightened a lot on this

last month of pregnancy, with false contraction and all. With no sleep

and no correct sleeping positions.


Truly, truly grateful he could be with me

right now. God is good, after all.

His timing is impeccable, 

His reasoning is even more so.


Thank you God for every breath,

every strength, every protection and

every presence. Thank you for everything.



Ananda Khaira Azizah,

Pekanbaru, 5 Juli 2023.

Hari Rabu, pukul 12 malam.



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