The Little Women

There are days when I feel Like I withered away. While my baby flourished, my husband’s advancing, and the world move on. Yet I stand still. I stand still, watching them going up & above. Sometimes with envy eyes, often with an exhausted mind and a tired arm on those sleepless days. I’m a mother now on most days. Not really a wife; neither a daughter. Not even myself. Just, mom. Tondi’s mom. “This too shall pass.” People often say. The baby will grow up and you’ll finally, finally feel like yourself again. Ever so slowly but sure. So may we have the strength we need, mama. May we have the patience & the courage we need to advance on this phase, together. We’re all in this together. Ananda Khaira Azizah, Pekanbaru, 28 Januari 2024. Pukul 2 pagi.  

I don’t know how he fitted so well still into mama’s hands.   I mean, the baby grew; yet my hand expands.  No matter how  big he gets. Just exactly like my heart. It expand so, so wide I can’t even see the edges. My heart expand so wide For my love to my family. And my marriage? Three years in and everything just falls into place.  Our habits, the shared stories,  the laughters, even our mindsets really starts to align. Sure we still have our differences but boy did we begin to merge into one. One soul within two bodies. It’s really amazing  what marriage  can do. But what is three compared to eternity, So cheers to us and more story, And I’m forever grateful for my family. Ananda Khaira Azizah, Pekanbaru, 9 Januari 2024. Hari Selasa, pukul 7 pagi.  

I love the way his hair curled up comfortably on his head I love how he breath slowly, deeply & peacefully on his slept I love the way his body odour freshly smelt right after his bath I love how his eyes looking at me Oh so mesmerizingly great, Just before baby went to bed I love the way his little fingers felt Gripping my finger oh so tight I just, love everything about my baby The deepest love a human ever possible to possess, love from a mother to her child. Mama loves you in and out, dear. Mama loves you in and out. Ananda Khaira Azizah, Pekanbaru, 3 Januari 2024. Hari Rabu, pukul 7 pagi.