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Withered Away

There are days when I feel

Like I withered away.


While my baby flourished, my husband’s advancing, and the world move on.


Yet I stand still. I stand still,

watching them going up & above.


Sometimes with envy eyes,

often with an exhausted mind

and a tired arm on those sleepless days.


I’m a mother now on most days.

Not really a wife; neither a daughter.

Not even myself. Just, mom. Tondi’s mom.


“This too shall pass.” People often say.

The baby will grow up and you’ll finally,

finally feel like yourself again.

Ever so slowly but sure.


So may we have the strength we need, mama. May we have the patience & the courage we need to advance on this phase, together.


We’re all in this together.


Ananda Khaira Azizah,

Pekanbaru, 28 Januari 2024.

Pukul 2 pagi.



 

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